Feeling optimistically lazy….
If there’s one thing I’m good at.. it’s procrastinating. But I do actually get a lot done when I do happen to be putting something off. Writing this blog is one of them. I have been meaning to write a new blog for ages, so is it really a bad thing that I am in fact, procrastinating?
The point I’m trying to make is that out of everything, even the shitty things that tend to always happen in life, something amazing might be around the corner. Not that this particular blog is amazing mind you, but it is something that I’ve been meaning to get done for a while. Unfortunately all the other times I ended up procrastinating doing something else… haha
The moral of the story is this. Be happy when something doesn’t work out as planned, because you may be about to experience something wonderful! A perfect example of this is my accident. I was badly burned in an incident involving A LOT of stupidity and bad decisions all round. The skin was literally rolling off of my back and I ended up in hospital to get the rest of the black charred skin scraped off. Morphine did nothing but make the pain less severe, but it is still to this day the most horribly painful thing I’ve ever gone through. And that’s saying something because I’m accident prone and forever getting myself into trouble! Take last months jellyfish-sting-to-the-neck-another-yet-another-trip-to-hospital adventure…..
Anyway, if that hadn’t happened, I would never have had the perfect excuse to stay in LA! You see, at that time I was on a quick 10 day vacation here to see some friends and do a few photo shoots before moving from Edinburgh to London. I had my flat and jobs lined up and everything, and was to move in the day after I got back. Needless to say that didn’t happen because I was in no fit state to. I could barely sit in a car for 5 minutes without being in agony, never mind a 10 hour long flight across the Atlantic.
And what an adventure it’s been!! The first year here was really hard because I hadn’t planned on living in another country. I also had less than $200 to my name, couldn’t work due to my back infury, no where to live… it was pretty bleak a lot of the time. But after a looong while, things finally started to get a little better…
Now? I feel as though I’m closer than ever before to the place I’ve always wanted to be, and all this after the worst decision of my life. So, was it really that bad of a decision afterall?
The accident also led me to the girl who is now closer to me than a lover or a sister or even a soul mate could ever be. She held my hand during my accident and has struggled on with me since day one of LA life, trying to make ends meet and getting ourselves into the weirdest, most fucked up situations together (on some real levels) and we have stuck together ever since. You don’t go through things like that with someone without connecting with someone’s aura completely.
“Everything happens for a reason.” couldn’t be a truer statement in regards to life, and I am a firm believer in that.
I will leave you with this photo of a pretty wasted Keifer Sutherland at a Hollywood bar when I first arrived in LA. You can’t tell, but he is giving me a wedgie in this picture, hence my insane-ly shocked looking face.
Until next time kittlings … meow xo